Blessed, Broken, Renewed

Learning. I am blessed.

I have so many things to be thankful for, and I am trying not to lose sight of that. I am truly blessed each day. I wish I was better at remembering to look at each day like a canvas painted with the pastel colors of blessings, it would be much more beautiful.

What would the world look like if each person were to paint their blessings each day? What if these canvases covered the walls downtown, the graffiti under bridges, the billboards on the side of the road?  If phrases of jubilation and praise were painting our cities, how would our interaction with others change?

Learning. I am broken.

My heart has not left my stomach in days, and it is difficult to ignore at night.  It will get easier, one of these days. Looking forward to that day. I want to cut off completely from the rest of the world, turn off all technology and hide behind my pen and my letters.  At the same time, however, I long for more deep connection.

Learning. I am renewed.

The apostle Paul once said, “Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.  For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen.  For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”

Time, Seasons, Change.

“I could not have known then that everybody, every person, has to leave, has to change like seasons; they have to or they die. The seasons remind me that I must keep changing, and I want to change because it is God’s way. All my life I have been changing. I changed from a baby to a child, from soft toys to play daggers. I changed into a teenager to drive a car, into a worker to spend some money. I will change into a husband to love a woman, into a father to love a child, change houses so we are near water, and again so we are near mountains, and again so we are near friends, keep changing with my wife, getting our love so it dies and gets born again and again, like a garden, fed by four seasons, a cycle of change. Everybody has to change, or they expire. Everybody has to leave, everybody has to leave their home and come back so they can love it again for all new reasons.

“I want to keep my soul fertile for the changes, so things keep getting born in me, so things keep dying when it is time for things to die. I want to keep walking away from the person I was a moment ago, because a mind was made to figure things out, not to read the same page recurrently.

“Only the good stories have the characters different at the end than they were at the beginning. And the closest thing I can liken life to is a book, the way it stretches out on paper, page after page, as if to trick the mind into thinking it isn’t all happening at once.

“Time has pressed you and me into a book, too, this tiny chapter we share together, this vapor of a scene, pulling our seconds into minutes and minutes into hours. Everything we were is no more, and what we will become, will become what was.”

Donald Miller

A New Beginning.

I have been meaning to start seriously blogging again, and the time has come.

This blog will be comprised of my daily thoughts and pictures, as well as interesting reads, devotionals, and music.

“Don’t get older;
get better:
Live realistically.
Give generously.
Adapt willingly.
Trust fearlessly.
Rejoice daily.”

Chuck Swindoll