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You Are His Concern.

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Wow… I am continually humbled by a Father who knows where to meet me where I am. Sunday morning devotional that was exactly what I needed. I hope it blesses you as much as it did me.

Isn’t God gracious? We have a Lord who knows our hearts, knows our thoughts, and knows our fears. When Moses had left Egypt forty years before there were those who sought his life, he was probably featured at the top of the Egyptian version of The Ten Most Wanted list.

Naturally, Moses had not forgotten. He was a family man now, headin’ west with the wife and kids, and that potential danger must have been weighing on his mind. It was part of the reason he had been reluctant to go in the first place. But when he finally made the decision to embrace God’s will, he determined to make the journey in spite of those concerns. He told the Lord, in effect, “Lord, I’m going to trust You with all my heart. I’m not going to lean on my own understanding. In all my ways I’m going to recognize You and let You take care of the obstacles.”

So he set his face toward Egypt and began putting one foot in front of another, in obedience to God. Before he stepped outside the borders of Midian, however, the Lord did something for His servant. He said to him, “Oh, by the way, Moses, you remember all those who sought your life in Egypt? Don’t be anxious about them. They’re all dead. They can’t hurt you now.”

What a sight that little family must have been as they headed down the desert road. His wife, Zipporah, was on the donkey, the two kids were cavorting on ahead, and a few of the family’s belongings were probably tied on the donkey’s back. They were on their way, leaving a steady job, family, security, and the familiarity of their surroundings. Midian wasn’t much, but it had been their home for forty years. And now they were on their way to Egypt—on their way to the Exodus. What faith!

Have you stepped out on faith like that recently? Have you made a move, followed the nudging of God, into realms you wouldn’t have even dreamed of five years ago? He will honor your faith as you trust Him in that kind of walk. Those who remain in the false security of Midian never get to experience what Moses experienced on that winding highway to Egypt—the sense of moving in the strong current of God’s will and plan. Press on!

by Charles R. Swindoll

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Heavenly Father, oh how You know my heart, and You know my fears, God.  Thank you for this reminder this morning.  Thank you for reminding me that my fears aren’t going unnoticed.  God, I trust You, help me continue to live each day in accordance with Your will, and help me step out in faith and head towards the Egypt in my life, God.  I pray for strength and faith like Moses.  I will keep pressing on, Heavenly Father.  Hold my hand, guide me.  Thank You for who You are, and who You promise You will continue to be. I love you, and thank You for loving me.

Fear.

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I am afraid. It’s that simple. I am absolutely terrified.

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I keep myself busy to the point I can hardly function, going going going.  Don’t get me wrong, I love being busy; I love having things to do; I love growing in knowledge and spirit; but sometimes, I just get so overwhelmed with where life is taking me, rather, where I am taking my life.

I have such a burning desire, a deep heart-wrenching desire to make an impact in this world.  I want to so badly.  I want to leave college prepared to do everything I can to make this world a better place, to bring a little bit of God’s Kingdom to earth.  I want to free children from bondage, women from trafficking, families from poverty, and my impatience is driving me crazy.

That is why I chose law school.

I thought, what is the next step after undergrad that I can take to be that much closer to action, that much closer to change, that much closer to justice? I want to know my boundaries, and I want to know exactly what kind of action I can take to accomplish my goals. Law school it is.

But I’m afraid.

I am driven. I am passionate. I am confident, but man…I am afraid.

I am afraid of not getting into the school that I want to, because I desperately want to get into a Top 20 school.

I am afraid of not being prepared going in.

I am afraid of being isolated.

I am afraid of moving, yet again, to a completely new state with no family or friends for support, while going through the most academically rigorous and emotionally taxing years of my life.

I think most of all I am afraid of making it through law school and being alone. This is the hardest for me to admit…but if there is anything that I have dreamt of being since I was very little, it was a mother.  I have always wanted to raise a family, and I am so terrified that my drive for school and for my future, will leave relationships on the side-line.

This probably sounds so ridiculous. I am 21-years-old, and I have felt so much weight on my shoulders to figure out how the next ten years of my life is going to pan out.  It certainly does not help that I go to a school that has been called the “Bridal Institute Of Los Angeles.”  So many people getting hitched, it makes me sick. Seriously.

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Oh God, how I need your strength and your love. I know you can give me courage to conquer all of my fears, God, please help me relinquish control and lay my fear at your feet, God.  You promise to comfort those in need, and your Word says you will never leave me nor forsake me, God.  Please, wrap your arms around me, help me feel your presence.  You are all I need, God, you are all I want. Please come into my fears and give me peace and patience.  I know you are in control and you are orchestrating the details of my life, God, please keep me from trying to rearrange your story, because I know the storyline you have laid out for me is fruitful and promising. 

God, I realize a lot of my fear is due to my lack of trust and lack of faith, God. I pray that you continue to break me down and humble me until I am all yours, God, because that is what I desire.  In everything, God, I want all glory to go to you.  You hold my days in your hands, you know the numbers of hairs on my head, and the number of years in my life.  I pray for intimacy with you, God. I know you can bring me peace in my fear and comfort through these life decisions. I love you, God. Thank you for being my Rock and my Salvation, and a loyal, dear friend.