As humans, we try and package everything and have the same expectations for God and His plan for us.  We expect His logic to mirror ours and sometimes, this isn’t the case. We sit back and try and figure out what went wrong because life isn’t playing out according to that logic.

It’s no surprise that sometimes God says “no” to some of our desires and wishes, but this does not always mean He is disciplining or rejecting us. Sometimes it can be a re-direction. Sometimes we are pursuing His will and have wanted to do His will, and with good intentions we keep pressing on. What happens when we’re years down the line and this pursuit still hasn’t materialized?

People will try to tell you that you were never actually pursuing God’s will and leave you feeling guilty and lost.

Often we have our lives all mapped out and it doesn’t go anywhere close to according to those plans. Isn’t it possible, however, that the road we chose to travel indeed is God’s will, and his saying “no” put us on the right road?

Chuck Swindoll once said, “The thing we have to do in our walk with God is to listen carefully from day to day. Not just go back to some decision and say, ‘That’s it forever, regardless.’ We need to look at it each day, keep it fresh, keep the fire hot, keep it on the back burner, saying, ‘Lord, is this Your arrangement? Is this Your plan? If it is not, make me sensitive to it. Maybe You’re redirecting my life.'”

I guess I have been afraid that with all of my passion, dreams and goals in life that maybe I have stopped asking those questions, in fear of the response. I love what I am doing in so many areas of my life and I could see myself making a life in so many different arenas. However, I’ve had my goals and aspirations all “mapped out” for a while now and I feel like I’m quitting if I begin to earnestly seek the Lord in a possible redirection.

That’s largely a result of society.  Will people think I gave up? Will people think I lost my focus? Will people think…will people think…

I need to stop worrying about what people think and seek the One who can give me peace and direction beyond comprehension.

God, I thank you for your perseverance and Your never-ending pursuit of a relationship with me. Give me the strength the take a step back and accept a redirction for my life if that is what You desire for me.  I love You, help me to love You more. Amen.