Uncertainty and Reassurance

In four days I will start my final semester of undergraduate studies. The reality has set in that I have no idea what the future holds. Acceptance letters from law schools are starting to come in from very different geographical locations east coast, west coast, Midwest… and at this point I haven’t the slightest inclination as to where I will decide to go. Consequently, I haven’t a clue as to where I’ll be living in six months.

I have become overwhelmed with the uncertainty of the future. I have sometimes struggled with thinking I have been overzealous in the process of getting into schools and planning my immediate future. I still struggle with the ever-present fear of “am I really cut out for this?” and “am I going to be able to accomplish everything I want to?”

 

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

This morning I took a moment to reread my personal statement that I sent to the law schools I applied to. It was the reassurance I needed. It was helpful to go back and remember how I got to this point, to sit down and remember the hard work I have put in to get where I am, to regain confidence that I am cut out for this and to refresh myself of the vision I have for the future.

These are the last few sentences of my personal statement…

No matter how life progresses from here, I know that I have a vision and passion to impact the world. I know that my thirst for knowledge and understanding, as well as my love for people, will help me be diligent in law school. I am driven by the reality that I will always have something more to learn, and I hope that someday I can use my knowledge from law school in order to take action at home and abroad.

Newport Beach, January 24, 2012

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